Thursday, June 3, 2010
小姐，妳的笑容... 掉了。
(wa lao you damn kaypoh lor)
"You used to be alright. What happened?"
A friend asked. What happened? I guess just too much happened these few years. Nothing I say will make any difference. I can only wish that life will get better. I'm very tired of everything. Many times I wanted to just lose it, but I always compose myself and go on. When will this end? I think the main source of unhappiness is usually from my social interaction. Most of the time I'm with brainless people and that makes me alike soon. These people usually talk without thinking and I can't help but let it go when they unknowingly offend the people around them (ALL THE TIME!). I mean they can't be blamed because they are stupid right? I'm seriously very pissed everytime I'm with these kind of people. They get egoistic when they are good at something, then they'll humiliate you to make themselves feel good. Then they'll start taking control of your lives by asking you to do this and do that because they think they're the best in this world and that the Earth revolves around him and the Sun rise and set for him blah blah. They want to change you to become like them because they think that should be the Way, everybody should be like him. What I want to say is that egoistic people are real shallow. I don't really want to talk to anybody already, only if we can really click. But I guess you can't survive in this world this way. I'm the most boring and uninteresting person in the world.
Why must there be so many problems? One after another. It's like what you see in the 10324-episode drama serial. When is this going to end? I want to have a good night sleep. Sometimes I really wish somebody will hold the weight for a little while while I catch a breath. And sometimes I really wish I could just strip everything and be the true me.
I guessed I improved? Maybe polytechnic education and being Young Master's PA. The other elder siblings' PAs were fun and smart people, together with my colleagues in office, even though I've only been there for a year, we worked and played like we knew one another for a long time. I've learnt a lot from the young master actually, though most of the time he's a hard nut to crack and difficult to get along with. Throughout this year, I've really seen a lot, from all the hard work the company does to the sad scenes. All the runnings here and there, all the different people from all walks of life I met, were all worthwhile I guessed. After I moved on from here, I'm really gonna miss the family and the business I guess.
I'm really gonna miss many of my close friends blah blah. I will move forward, I will still continue do my best to fulfil and realise what we strived and aimed for 9 years ago. It's been like 9 years already??? Looking back then, we were so young and funny and cool. I seriously think we were damn damn cool. So adventurous, or should I say audacious?
Ok for my last few days as a civilian, gotta catch up with some good friends and say my last words. And most importantly, tie up all the loose ends. Super lots of things to take care of, handing over and transferring some responsibilities on hand to certain people. Wrap up all the existing problems and I'm good to go. Hope I can see you people again. Ciao!
(wa lao you better not copy and paste and show other people lor. irritating. Mozilla Firefox big fuck?)
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