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I stand in between both solstice; slashed, tortured, LOST.




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Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.




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Since 1 Oct 2007

Things weren't going the way I wished it had. School shits were a total mess. My GPA is going to break new low record this last semester for sure. Other than that, YM and the Devil were still enjoying making my life difficult I have to keep making excuses that school needs me. Somehow my job scope widened overtime. O.o

School is very sian. I intended to strive and do my best for last semester in hope of pulling up my GPA, since somebody said last semester would be the easiest, smoothest, slackest semester. But my drive diminished as days passed. The intention of scoring turned to get over and done with. Competitive coursemates added to my stress by writing 100 times the word limit for all essays. I only managed a 1,500-word for my individual BCM.

Darren wanted me to explain the Swiss Cheese Model of Accident Causation without using my presentation slides during ASMHF and I just stood in front of my class looking at them looking back at me for like five minutes. I did not say a word, because I really don't know how to explain. I did not bother to do anything either, just thinking why my life everytime like that. GG

ASMHF test also GG. There wasn't a question that I answered fully.

I screwed my CCOM too. Well, not actually. I think I did not bad. But why never mark according to marking scheme??? Then marking scheme for what? And what's 17.3/20? 12.9/15? Define the 0.1 mark. My interview broke the class record, or maybe the cohort record. I got a 12.5/20. "*applause*" I know my speech wasn't very substantial but I think I at least deserve a 14? It wasn't THAT bad. And most of the time the teacher interrupted as I spoke. I was on the verge of walking out. The critic was bias much? He was accusing me all the things that I didn't do. And my CV and cover letter were severely underrated.

Our supposedly 15-minute SQM presentation took about an hour or so. Q&A turned into a discussion session and the teacher was scrutinising in depth and detail and carried the matter too far. It wasn't that bad, we just did according to the marking scheme. Again, why never mark according to marking scheme? Then marking scheme for what? I do according to my mood can? I was the biggest shareholder for this project but I let my team down. They even told me not do FMF so I can focus on SQM. Really sorry bros.

I hope I'm able to psych myself into study mode for my last two papers. Can't wait for school to end.

***** wise, I don't really want to say much. I don't know if it's ***'s problem or it's just me. But I think it's not me. I was trying hard to stand firm (literally too) as she rebutted all the points and supporting evidences I raised. I was trying my best to fight all her points. The presentation did not continue as I walked out of the room. She got all personal so I thought there was no point being professional. And no point being respectful to disrespectful bitch. Why did I get myself in such predicament? Thank the irresponsible bloke who put me through this. !@#$%

I don't want to believe that it all boils down to my unpleasant disposition.